**Photo from: Patty Mendoza's Tumblr
.....Err, Not.
Brief background on my summer 'VACAY':
Immediately after 2nd semester, I started out my internship at Mercury Drug Corporation for 10 days. Then I took my summer classes for Physical Pharmacy (April19- May22). Today I started again with my internship at MDC (which will end exactly on June6) then on June 7, classes starts again. :(
Oh yea. I'm such a loser. I have never been anywhere but MDC, school, house, and occasionally mall. I hate this vacay ever. :(
I hate the way you smile.
I hate the way you talk.
I hate the way you dress.
I hate the way you react when you're mad.
I hate the way you handle your problems.
I hate how I can be so clingy at times.
I hate how I easily miss you.
I hate how I care too much about you.
I hate the way you make me feel when you're around even more when you're not.
I hate this strong feeling I have for you.
I hate how even with all of these, I still love you.
02.13.2010 The love celebration thingy started last Saturday when Jake's siblings invited me to a house dinner. It was so funny 'cause the attire was formal daw! Haha. I even told my friend about it and said I'm gonna buy a corsage and a boutonniere for me and Jake. But of course, I was just kidding. :P I thought it was just their gimik but when we arrived at their place, his brother and her sister's husband were wearing Amerikana! They were so cool. :)) The food that night was superb. Though I'm not a fan of mashed potatoes, I loved their version of it and the soup of course. :) Thanks Nuguid siblings for inviting me! :)
02.14.2010 Jake went to service with me and my parents to Alabang then my parents treated the both of us to a sumptuous lunch (Yey!). The day ended with the fireworks at MOA. Best valentine's date ever! :)
**Real pictures will come later when Jake uploads them. :)
2 years ago, I had the chance to celebrate my 18th birthday (Yuck! I'm getting old. :| ). It was how I really wanted it to be like- swimming party with close friends. But after going to different debuts, I realized I should have done a real party. I want the thrill of going to couturiers and having my gown designed, of thinking of what cake, theme and souvenirs my party would have, and all that stuff. I know it's weird for a girl to celebrate her 21st birthday, but who cares. This is my birthday. :))
Dream theme: Barbie- reinvent Barbie's looks
I remember Preview's 'Best dressed ball 2009' where everyone dressed up like Ken or Barbie. I like that too. I want the whole place to be lit up in neon pink and white lights. The whole theme would be like pink, black and white.
YEY! I'm excited! :D
**I can't find pictures of Preview's Best dressed ball 2009. All i know is it is in Preview July 2009. Hmmm.. who has a copy?
When you get overwhelmed, take a deep breath and just take it one step at a time. Mile by mile., life's a trial. Yard by yard, life is hard. But inch by inch, life's a cinch.
The past week of my life has been, I must say, one of the worst that I've ever experienced in my life. What I went through was something I thought I would never go through at this early age. The thought of it never even crossed my mind. But I am so grateful that it is officially over.
There were nights that I wasn't able to sleep because I kept on waking up in the middle of the night thinking of what happened to me and what will happen to my life. Those were the times that my whole life kept on replaying in my mind. It felt so surreal. Everyone I know in my life kept on flashing in my mind. I thought of ending my life or just sit in one corner and do nothing since I believed I was a loser. But I also thought, doing those things would just make me a REAL loser so I did otherwise. I refrained myself from thinking of negative thoughts and just continued fighting and holding on to dear life. Though I know, there were times that I failed and even published my negative thoughts for the world wide web to know.
Going through this rough stuff made me a better person. I know it sounds cliche but that's how it felt like. I know I wouldn't have survived it without God. He was the only one I could talk to since I was too shy to share it with other people. Plus, I know with God my secret was safe. He has no one to share my problems to, right? Haha. That's the nicest thing about that. :)) I actually learned lessons in life because of what I had to go through and here are some of them:
1.) People are flawed individuals.
I've learned that I will never ever find someone in life who will be perfect and who will be the ideal person for me (Okay, I'm not referring to a boyfriend here but people in general). I might find one person to be better than the other, but that person who I thought was better is just another person who makes mistakes. That sometime in my life, I will realize that this person is a flawed individual who may also fail me at times. Now, as almost all of you know, I'm a perfectionist. I like things to be in perfect order, in the perfect place and in the perfect condition. When people don't do things the way I told them to, I tend to get mad at them. I get frustrated pretty easily. I expect people to react the way I expect them to react and to do things the way I want them to. But I learned that this is not the way it is in the real world. People have different behavior and personality. Not all of them will do things the way I do them. I have to keep in mind that I too, as a person, is flawed and isn't perfect. And that people also get frustrated with the things I do. I'v finally learned that this is the way to understand other people more.
2.) Don't do things on impulse.
I've also learned that I should always think twice or even thrice when I want to do something especially if that involves my feelings. I'm the kind of person who has a set of rules that I live by. But what's disappointing is when crunch time comes, I tend to do otherwise. It's like I have 2 personalities, one that is goody- goody(idealistic side) and one that is kinda wild (realistic side). I tend to use my heart more rather than my brain. And this causes me to do things I know I'm not supposed to do, things that I know I will regret in the end. Now, I thank God because He helped me realize this now and not in the time that is too late. A time wherein I couldn't do anything anymore but to suffer and face my consequences.
And lastly;
3.) People always leave. ALWAYS.
Err...this wa where I got it all wrong. Last week I felt that I will never find someone who will forever be there, who will never leave me. I believed that, in one way or another, they will find ways to leave me. It's either they will slowly detach themselves from me and will slowly drift apart from our relationship (friendship, bf-gf relationship, etc.) or they will just leave me hanging. Bam. Just like that, like we were never in good terms before. Thinking this way made me a bit cold in dealing with people. I didn't want to disclose myself or to be close too much with people so when they leave, I won't get hurt that much. In this way, goodbyes won't be a big deal anymore. It would be just like a breeze. But as I've said, I got the wrong notion. This isn't the way things are in the real world because in the real world, I have no choice but to share my life and my feelings with people or else I will be a loner- a person with no friends, just acquaintances. I also forgot that there will be persons who will choose to stay no matter what, that there will be persons who will be willing to go through whatever it is that I have to go through. And one of these persons, are my friends..my true friends. This group of friends was one of the persons that kept me sane. No matter how far they were, they still tried to reach out and to comfort me. And that's the most important thing, to make others feel that, 'Hey, I'm here'. And that's what I'm thankful for. :)
It's been a long time since I posted something here. I haven't been functioning properly for the past few days. My mind's been floating, my face has been looking like crap and my body's been failing me. I told myself I won't post anything yet until I find a solution to my problem or until I finally have an answer to my problem. But I just can't wait. The outpour of emotions is just too much. I'm scared. Can someone please answer this simple yet complex question... Why?
Over 300 "Rentheads" showed up when 9 Works Theatrical, Manila's newly organized professional theatre group, held open auditions for its second major production - Jonathan Larson's groundbreaking, and multi-awarded rock musical RENT. This new project, together with Lunchbox Theatrical's much awaited touring production of CATS, and Atlantis' upcoming productions of LEGALLY BLONDE and XANADU, are set to make Manila's theatrescape truly bustling, and exciting in 2010.
RENT Manila's director Robbie Guevara and his publicist Toots Tolentino have just sent BroadwayWorld.com Philippines a hot list of its complete cast, composed of a mix of local theatre veterans and newbies.
RENT in Manila on February 21, 2010 will feature:
Roger - Gian Magdangal (Footloose, West Side Story)
Mark - Fred Lo (N.O.A.H.)
Mimi - Nicole Asensio / Cara Barredo (Mulan Jr., The Fantasticks)
Angel - Job Bautista
Collins - OJ Mariano
Maureen - Carla Guevara-Laforteza (Miss Saigon, Spelling Bee, Avenue Q)
Joanne - Jenny Villegas
Benny - Noel Rayos (Company, Hairspray)
The ensemble will include Raul Montesa (Man of La Mancha, Sweeney Todd), Guji Lorenzana (West Side Story), Gary Junsay (Sweeney Todd), Johann de la Fuente (Footloose, Spelling Bee), Anna Santamaria, Ring Antonio (Once On This Island, Sweeney Todd), Peachy Atilano, and swings Harold Cruz and Kyla Rivera (Footloose, Beauty and the Beast).
Based on Giacomo Puccini's LA BOHEME -- RENT, written by Larson (tick, tick...BOOM!), is the story of Bohemian New Yorkers Mark, Roger, Maureen, Tom Collins, Angel, Mimi, Joanne, and their friends -- all struggling to survive during the rise of a mysterious, deadly disease - AIDS, and the ever prevalent economic crisis in the late '90s.
Featuring the mainstream popular hit "Seasons of Love," RENT remains socially relevant, youthful, and moving. RENT lives on, along with the affirmation that there is "no day but today."
RENT premiered on Broadway in 1996. On that same year, RENT won the Pulitzer Prize for Drama; Tony Awards (Best Musical, Best Score and Best Book - Jonathan Larson and Best Featured Actor in a Musical - Wilson Jermaine Heredia ); New York Drama Critics Circle Award for Best Musical; Drama Desk Awards (Best Musical; Best Music, Best Lyrics and Best Book - Jonathan Larson; Best Featured Actor in a Musical - Wilson Jermaine Heredia and Best Arrangements - Steve Skinner ); Outer Critics Circle Award for Best Off-Broadway Musical; Drama League Award for Best Musical; Theatre World Awards ( Outstanding New Talent - Adam Pascal and Daphne Rubin-Vega ); Obie Awards (Outstanding Book, Music, and Lyrics - Jonathan Larson; Outstanding Direction - Michael Greif and Outstanding Ensemble Performance ).
It has been translated into 15 languages in 25 countries, luring audiences from all over the world, including a very strong fan base in the Philippines. Columbia Pictures released an American film adaptation of the Broadway musical in 2005.
RENT Manila is presented through special arrangement with Music Theatre International(MTI), 421 West 54th Street, New York, New York 10019.
For tickets, contact Krizanne 09178392627, 09228812339; Mae 09228139543; or Val 09178583678.
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Yey! Iya and I are going to watch this on the 21st of February (Sunday) at 8PM (!). This is the greatest timing since there will be no classes on the 22nd due to the Celebration of EDSA Revolution (Am I right?). Another great thing is that I was able to find a person who sells the tickets who is from UP- Manila too. That way, it won't be a hassle for us when paying time comes since the meeting place is at OUR (Office of the University Registrar) only. I was hoping that more people would come with us though. But it's okay, Iya and I are always the ones who go to events like this naman eh. Can't wait for this time to come! :D
**Post from: http://rent-in-manila.blogspot.com/
(L-R:Kristen Stewart, Blake Lively, Emma Roberts and Amanda Seyfried)
I stumbled upon these pictures just minutes ago and I found it cool. To have these 4 celebs in one photoshoot is such an amazing move. :)
**Photographed by Mark Seliger, July 2008 for Vanity Fair
This was the day that I was going to MCD (Mercury Drug Corporation) to have my interview for my Community Internship. All throughout our journey, my Dad constantly told me not to lie, not to compromise my beliefs just to get that one thing I think I NEED to have. He was telling me this because I told him that MCD doesn't accept applicants who has their own drugstore because it's a 'Conflict of interest' daw. My brother did not tell them that we have one hence the acceptance. I was so torn between telling them and telling a lie. So before going down our car, we prayed for guidance. We went to the lobby and waited for some time before it was my turn and miraculously, I didn't have to lie because the interviewer didn't ask me what the business of my mother was. HAHA. Poor her. :P
They accepted me but I have to go back there pa because they won't be able to give the schedule of my internship unless I tell them what the schedule of my summer class is.
It's so sad that I won't be able to enjoy my summer vacation because of internship and summer class. Oh well, I have 2 more years of this situation. Gotta endure this. :)
In the afternoon of January 01, 2010, just as I was about to take my lunch, Jake called me up and told me that his mom was inviting me to go their family post- Christmas/ New Year get- together. I was shocked because I never thought I would be invited into these kinds of events especially since we just started with this relationship, but nevertheless I was thankful. After learning the details, I went to my parents and asked permission if I could go and with a few chit- chat, they said yes.
Jake fetched me from my house and headed to MoA (Mall of Asia) first since we were too early for our meeting time. After 2hours of walking endlessly doing and buying nothing, we went to MOP (Manila Ocean Park) to meet with his family. Now this was the time I was shaking and getting cold hands. Haha. Yea, I'm weak. I know. :P But this was serious stuff, I knew they would comment on any wrong stuff that I would do. Though I met his siblings and their respective families before, I still felt that this encounter was totally different. Especially since his mom was going to be there. :P
After touring the whole MOP, we had dinner at...there my mind went blank. I forgot the place but it's the buffet restaurant that is located near the exit of MOP. Okay for you guys who went there already, you know what I'm talking about. :)
The Meet- and- Greet was fun and was something that I will really remember. To Jake's family, thank you for treating me nicely and for the whole experience. To Jake, thank you..you know what I mean. :)
Take 1
(L-R: Myself, Jake, Ate Haney, Tita Malou, Ate Deda, Nana and Kuya Mark)
Take 2
(L-R: Myself, Jake, Ate Haney, Tita Malou, Ate Deda, Nana, and Kuya Mark)
Ate Haney and Kuya Mark (Jake's brother and his wife)
Ate Deda, Nana, and Tita Malou (Jake's sister, his sister's daughter and Jake's mom)
Ate Deda and Tita Malou (Jake's sister and his mom)
HAVE A BLESSED NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
2009 may haven't been the best but it surely is better than 2008. I hope and pray that 2010 will be good for all of us. May you continue to be God- filled this coming year.
Love lots,
Thea Gonzales♥
**Photo from:http://triciawillgoplaces.tumblr.com/
'I know this is the first in 5 years that you'll be greeting a different guy and I know we've been together for a third of 2009...but those 4months with you was simply the best I ever had...Now that 2010 is just minutes away, I want to say thank you for the wonderful memories of 2009...I "promise" to love you more everyday, with respect and trust...we can make it possible...I love you Thea Ruth Frances N. Gonzales'
This is the best I've ever received in years. I was so touched by it that I wanted to cry when I read it. Whoever you are. I love you too. :)
**Photo from: http://ilabdoggies.tumblr.com
